Xander is Almost here!

I've had quite a few people tell me, oh wow, "Oh you're ready to pop!" or "You're carrying low!" or, "You're baby is ready to come because he's dropped." And, i gotta say, it's making me anxious. I mean, ignore the fact that i've had this baby in me for 37 weeks now, but when people say things like that, it makes me want to go into labor faster, and i'm just beyond ready! Am i selfish for saying I hope Xander doesn't wait for 3 weeks to get here? I'm seriously like telling people, you know, if he is over just 1 day i'm going to cry. Because, I believe i will. I don't want him late. I want him early. HEALTHY...but early. :) i'm just so impatient. Also, AHH! Guess what! i'm moving this week. So my mom says, oh this is nesting. i'm like, no..this is moving. But at the same time i'm like, uh, is it? But I'm moving, to Beth's little APT connected to her house in North East Orem. :) I'm STOKED! It's going to be so great. We will also have our own washer and dryer. (No we haven't gotten as far as to go and get one yet...but...we're getting there) And i'm So excited about that! I am glad. (Pathetic much?) Well, so McCord and I have this plan, of okay, this is what we are doing for the next year, and if everything works out, We may try and buy our own house in a year. And that's something  I really want. Sure it makes me nervous...For the past..oh 7 years, i've been moving like a turtle who can't find a good shell, but so I've gotten used to it, and I've gotta say, i love moving! it's so...refreshing, it's a new start, it's a great feeling once you're all moved in, etc. And! Beth, being the most awesome lady, is basically letting us feel like, this is our place. She's letting us PAINT! HOLY Crap! I can't wait. I'll get to do all that! I mean, every where i can remember living, we haven't been allowed to personalize it much at all. No paint, no wallpaper, no nails in the wall to hold or hang things you like..etc. It's insane. I maybe wish when i was little that my mom would have tried to move us into a house, and then I could have painted my room! That would have been sweet. So i feel like, well if i get to paint Xanders room, then I just feel like, he's going to be happier looking at more than white walls. I've gotten so many friends, and I've decided, I'm better at watching my mouth and stuff now...so, I'm excited I've got soo many people to help support me through my pregnancy, but Pam, said, once you give birth, it'll be all over, and I'm like, so..no one will care about me? :( Sad! I know that's not the case, just FYI, I was just like, initially feeling that way when i thought about what she said. Okay, i'm bored with typing. TTYL!

September 17th. (Original title I know.)

KSL report. A mom fell asleep begging on the side of the highway. The baby crawls into traffic, and baby is returned to mom after police interviewed her. They should have realized this baby isn't okay with mom. Hopefully this baby is okay being with mom. I hope this was like the wake up call. that baby would be in foster care had it been in the US.
http://www.ksl.com/index.php?nid=235&sid=12466852
 Ahh...Foster care. You know, foster care sucks when you have a sad experience? Over all, I know it was good for me, but i hated that i didn't get a family out of any of the families i stayed with. The one i really stayed in touch with, is divorcing right now, and so mom, is by herself and i'm like, oh well there's another family broken because of bad decisions.

Anyway. The 2nd week of preschool went okay. I had a birthing class, a breastfeeding class, and a Doctor appt this week. It feels good to say, i'm almost done. :) the birthing class is stuff i've already researched or learned somehow, so i didn't learn much the 1st class. Hopefully i learn more this next time around. Doc said my back contractions need to stop and if i can't not go to work, Resting after work is mandatory to slow them down to help avoid Premature labor. I think after 37 weeks, i won't be so scared, but right now, i need him to be healthy and IN ME for about 3 and a half more weeks! And you know what, i'm getting sooooo paranoid something's going to go wrong. Annie, I know what you're going to say, you're gonna be fine. But, ANNIE, it's freaking pushing a pot roast thru a nostrol! YOU TRY IT! (HAHA...Get the reference?) Gotta love friends. :)
PS..in my birthing class, i saw the placenta being delivered. Yum. :( Why does anyone need to see that or know it's even there. I say, gross! And i'm like, eating as i watch this video. McCord looked over to me and saw me making the puffy fish face with food in my mouth. HAHA.

Have I ever explained here, how Awesome my husband is? He went to everything with me this week. As i looked around the room in both the Classes, or even when i'm in the docs office waiting to be called, i see so many women alone. And, it's like, for him to be there with me all the time. I LOVE IT! He's so great. I just wish I could spend more time with him at home. I love being at home with him. it's better. More relaxing. Plus i can ROPE him into cleaning with me. For the 1st week at me being at preschool he was cleaning like the whole week. Ahh.... so nice. The 2nd week, i think he's done. LOL. One of our friends, Kilee, she asked him if I was nesting yet, and he told her he was the one doing all the cleaning that week, and she's like, Awww..You're nesting for her. So one day, i came home and the house was messy, and i'm like, McCord, I miss your nesting :)
SO, i need to finish packing my bag, and i need to figure out what stuff to pack for him. I'm SOoo..excited when i do something that has to do with Xander, that i think that's when i'm the happiest. He may not be here yet, but he's like, the thing that keeps me happy and going! Not that McCord isn't doing the same thing. But that's a different kind of love and excitement.

McCord, i keep finding like little things that show his excitement. Like his FB page. He doesn't get on much. He doesn't find it as entertaining as I do. BUT, he's changed his about me Section on there, and here's what it says. "Well, I'm 20, living in Orem with my wife Gabi. We are happily married and will soon be coming up on our 2nd year anniversary and we will soon have a little boy in our lives due October 31. That's right, Halloween."
That's really cute. He never changes anything on that page. LOL. If anything, he'll go on, and change his display picture every once in a while. But that's it. And, on his laptop, it's an ultrasound picture. :)
OH my gosh! I totally forgot, so a lot of my friends came to the baby shower okay? And, there were some that didn't come (Yes i'm holding a grudge to some of you! HAHA.) And, one family that came, was the family that adopted my Neice. She's getting so cute. I thought at first, not the prettiest face, but she's totally getting so adorable. I watch her grow in the pictures and she's so my brothers daughter. And i've gotta say. She's half Korean okay? So, the mom that adopted her, is Korean. And the dad, i think he kinda looks like Nick a lot, so seriously, they look like Kamea is hers. It's great. she's got such nice parents. I talk to the mom every so often, and she's so stinkin' cute and nice. Anyway, so I got to hold Kamea for a while. Who BTW will soon be 1. HOLY COW! Her B-day is in November. I think it's amazing how time flies!

Well, I think that's enough rambling for today. :) I'm getting more frequent at this blogging deal.

PS..I believe all my friends that read this are on my FB except for one or so. BUT, We got a maternity photo shoot done by a cute friend. Katie, and she did really well on our pictures! Here's an example!

 

9/11...

While I do respect the idea of a moment of silence for those involved in anyway, of the tragedy, of 9/11. I do think, it's over...shall we say, dramatized. Not saying that to be un-american in ANY way! Promise! I do believe if you've lost someone in the tragedy, don't forget about them, don't realize that they're gone without giving them proper respect, but i'm totally done basking in the sadness that has turned this country into what it is now. I believe, that we should be done and moving on. (Grieving time, is what 6 months? As someone else told me) No, i'm being a little harsh, so i'll move on.


Today, is my baby shower. Not the work one, Not the husbands moms. But my friends. Which, I'm just a little baffled by. I do kinda wish i could have combined to get them all over with at once. BUT...I'm still grateful that i have so many friends, wanting to help me out and throw these for me. I'm SOOO Grateful.

My friend Kilee, the one doing my shower today, She's being so great and helpful.
My Bestest friend, Pam Colson, she's so wonderful. I think she can tell when i'm just kinda having a hard time, and overwhelmed. You know what her cure is? Buying me shirts and stuff. She's so sweet that way. Here are 2 new shirts she bought me for these last few weeks of this pregnancy! (I may keep them and wear them after anyways. HAHA)

And, Just for old times sake, i found a SKINNY PICTURE! From BEFORE i was married tho!

Okay...i think i'm going to throw up looking at how much of a difference this is. Oh my god. I'm going to throw up. Can anyone PLEASE get me SKINNY again!?

Complaining...about Complaining! GO figure.

Last night, i almost cried, yes, cried, (blaming on the hormones) because my MIL said i complain a lot about my pregnancy. Usually i retaliate with anger, or passive aggressiveness, and this time, it's like, really? Do i? Am i that annoying? I literally feel like i hate myself for complaining so much. My husband tried to calm me down and said i don't actually complain so much, i just talk about it a lot. I have nooo idea which is worse. Constantly talking about how excited and pregnant i am so i am that annoying, or...complaining so much about how pregnant i am so i'm that annoying.

Oh my god i'm so sick of these hormones that i just want him OUT and i just want my normal angry self back! The brain would be nice too, but i guess that never comes back. (According to all those moms that have said no.)

Okay. Since, this is a complaint, really, i'm going to try really hard not to complain or talk about my pregnancy so much to not offend or annoy anyone else. I know how getting annoyed is, and i don't want to annoy friends. That's just...lame.

The Ex-LDS blog. Or...Confessions of a non LDS Member!

I do warn. I don't reccomend reading this if you're very..close minded about the church. It may offend you. I did want to post this, because, this is a very..Interesting, If you will, veiw or writing, about a man, who only Regrets his mission.

He doesn't exactly say why, he feels this way, or give as many details as I would like, but here goes.

http://www.exmormon.org/mormon/mormon085.htm

That's the website. I do find it very intriguing to know that there is one person out there, (and may be plenty more) that regrets an LDS Mission he did as a young boy. I'd always wondered if anyone would talk about it, if they didn't agree with everything they did on their mission.

One thing i wonder is, why, the Utahn, mormons, are just SOOO different, from any other state. They're very conservative, and whatnot.  And don't take me wrong, I actually love all of my friends, and most of them are LDS and from Utah. It's just i've noticed a HUGE difference in attitude, about the church. One thing I can tell is that a lot of it is just a culture difference. A lot of this is because Utah mormons, are actually those that are born and raised here. So, it's not their fault that they're very..ignorant. A lot of them don't realize, that the amount of Politeness and just plain (i don't want to know about your life) ways, hurt people from out of state, or that have learned a different lifestyle, so they continue to just be friends with their kind. And i say this all out of the kindness of my heart. I am not trying to be unkind to anyone so i'm hoping no one reads this and takes it out of context.

WOW!

Okay, so first and foremost, Invitations for my baby shower are FINALLY done! Thanks to the Co-worker who can do anything with paper! :) Thanks Steph! Now, gotta get them out tomorrow morning, and then let's get some RSVP's! :)

2nd! My 2 year anniversary is tomorrow. I know that some people have said some things about how young we were when we got married and how it must have been for this or that reason, truth is, we love eachother, and couldn't be happier. :) Well, okay, someone could give us some money and pay our bills for us, but other than that...!

Baby Alexander, is getting more and more wanted and we're preparing more and more!

And, Missy, is cute. however, we've recently discovered, she doesn't like kids. Won't get near em. We've got a little brother and 2 kids i baby sit, and they'll go anywhere near her, and she will just hiss and growl. So we are concerned as to how she's going to be with baby around. Any suggestions anyone?

And, i'm in my 3rd trimester! I've got 11 weeks left and this is awesome! I can lean back a little, and then he sicks out in one area and it's kinda fun to look and touch. :)
one thing that's getting me, is everyone else who's pregnant for the first time, says they feel like a mom already, and i'm like, well i don't! I have to have my baby and then hopefully i'll feel like it! i hope i'm decent.

Excited for Xander, weeds, etc. Whatever comes out!

I just watched an Episode of a show, i'm a little embarrassed to like, called Weeds. McCord got me into it. I told him that's the dumbest crap i'd ever seen when i caught him watching it, and now i like it. I am ashamed. LOL! Anyway, i watched Nancy, give birth to her mafia mayor baby boy, and they're so..at peace for a moment, while dad holds him, and baby smiles up at him, and i just completely watered up. And, yes, i do this quite often now. Thinking of when i can hold my Xander, and when i get to hold him. I'm just too excited. I want it to come soon! But, it will. i'm also, getting anxious, because i swear to all the angels above, that it's going so much faster than i thought! WOOT! I don't know, if i'll be all the way ready! This has got to be one of the most weird types of Eustress any woman feels. Excitement for the child on the way, but stressed because of it. OH man! Anyways, i was told by a certain someone who's name i'll not mention (*Clears throat*) PAM! that my hair cut makes me look like a mom.

Well, i absolutely HATE my hair! I wish it'd just grow already! i've been contemplating extensions, but, i think that i'll wait until Christmas and give that special gift to myself. :)

(*Sudden realization*)

Wait, i'll get to buy someone stuff for Christmas! Other than McCord! Oh Goody! His first Christmas and he'll be about 2 months! that's gonna be cute. yes...i'm finally getting into the chrismas spirit!
No actually i can't wait for chrismas year round, however, I can't EVER think of things to get for McCord! I need help! Actually no one knows him better so help may not be the best thing. I just need to get creative. :)

Okay. Well, seeing as how i'm out of coke, i'll Go get me some, and then finish weeds! :)


Oh man. it smells like matches in here. Hmm...MCCORD?! Are you lighting your little firecrackers again!