Sad Friday.

So, I woke up as usual, and then, I went to work. As soon as i got to work, i started stressing out about money. (I do this about 1 time a month, and then the rest of the month, i just try not to think about it.) Then, i start crying, cuz i'm not sure what to do because i'm at work, and not being nice to customers because of stress. So, then, i get off work, and when i leave, i drive about 2 blocks, and then completely wreck my car. It was terrible.So, that was my day. Stress, on top of stress.

cRAPoLa!

Well, We've been robbed. We realized friday, and it must have happened thursday. Not just did they take our Playstation, but a playstation game (While leaving the controllers) and dvds. BUT, THEN missy must have come out, and they had to have gotten pissed at her, and stuck her in our Food cupboard. I asked mccord if he knew anything about that, and he didn't. So, they must have done that. I was very upset.

WOW!

I totally forgot about this page! Lol. it's been awhile since i've written anything. :D Also, Just want to update, i've been super happy lately. I'm probably going to take a vacation this december, not to mexico, but to california. I'll be back for christmas eve and day. Cordo has to work anyway. :( Bummer eh? Lol. Other than that, i'm planning on having me some kids. When we get back. We will probably start trying, and i'm really excited about that. :) SHHH....don't tell anyone. I know noone reads this page, so i'm not gonna care if i write it here. Lol. But i do like the pretty background and everything. Better than having a word document diary type crap. :))) Sooo....Missy's getting so big. Brought her first pumpkin home the other day, she didn't know what the heck to do with it! It was sooo funny. She kept putting her paws around it trying to measure it I guess??? Lol. Then she'd try to bite it but of course it's too big for her mouth, then McCord rolled it? And she Jumped super high then chased it! Twas amazing! I'll upload her pic! :)))

There she is! Anyway, be back soon i hope!

HEre's a baby name list i've generated. Go to the link and you can vote!



http://www.babynames.com/namelist/9723561

This is me and my fav little man Evan! Look how cute he is!

This is the most recent pic of me! :D

Of Course

So..feeling down again, but this time i think it's cuz i'm tired. :( I've actually gotten a new job lately. It's full time at the preschool. :D It's going to help McCord and i so much! SO i am happy about that. Very much so. But, its been wearing me out. Lol. McCord and i can't see each other so much anymore. :( I'm actually very excited for december. still prayin to go to mexico. and missy is getting sooooo big. I'm loving my bangs and i'm happy no one at the preschool has asked me to change it. So that's good. :D but i may anyway. oh grrr i'm so bored. i'm starving, and eating less. lol. full time takes it out of me. i've still got the gas station about 15-20 hrs a week so that's like totally amazing. i feel like i'm doing better. thanks for reading and the support!

PS. You're amazing, and great. Don't think any different!

Newest Stuff. I've been pretty depressed lately! I'm just gonna come out and say it. I've got some serious depression. I haven't been on meds for awhile, but now i'm considering getting back on. Some of you know what happened, some didn't. This is just gonna be like my journal. Each day goes by when i think, what would life be like, if I had had a baby? Would i feel this pain? Or would that child, help me to be happy! Sometimes, it's painful to think about. other times, helps me the hell out. Lately, i've been considering, adopting? Kinda wanna see what my options are ya know? And then, sometimes i'm like, you know what, i'm happy the way things are. I can wait a few years. We have 2 bedrooms right now, and one of them, is full of furniture, and baby stuff.

Also, My kitty. Growing as fast as a kitten should be. She's like my baby right now. :))

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McCord and I are totally excited for the fall semester to start. Today, i was actually offered a full time job at the preschool I've substituted at, and i'm thinking i'll turn it down. Then, tomorrow, one more job meeting to finally discuss what the hell i'm gonna be doing. This has been a busy week. I'm so tired all the time.

I've been much more social lately, and there's the few people who are helping and being mom like to me. I really appreciate them so much. 3 in particulaur. Pamela, Beth, and Wendy. It hurts so bad that I don't have a close mom to share this kind of relationship with, and then they help me through the hard times. I really wish i could have both sometimes. Is that selfish? I want a real mom. But i love them also. I'm not sure what to think. I lived with this lady, Janey once. I screwed that up horribly. She was the one foster mom who loved and understood me, and she gave me a consequence and i begged to leave. I really wish that Janey had still been my foster mom til i was 19. Would have done a lot freakin better than Kathie. I was MISERABLE with her! I wish i never asked to leave. I miss Janey so bad and sometimes, i wish i could just hug her. If only she knew, that i loved her. I can't tell her tho. I'm like way too chicken. Well, actually i'm scared of her not caring back you know? Kinda odd to say, you know, i love you like a mom, well, you kinda left me so i don't love you like a daughter. That's the conversation i don't want. Jajaja.

McCord and I are having thoughts about buying a house? Anyone know anything? I'd love to, but don't want to get screwed over.

Well, i think that's enough for tonight!

talk to you soon internet. Jajaja.

Hey there!

So lately, i've been a little baby hungry? And...wanted to express my...hungernesS? lol. Anyway, how are you? lately, my depression has been tons better. The ppd is a little over now...so that's like totally helping my work and whatnot. I'm doing pretty good in class and hopefully a- is the lowest grade i'll be getting. :0

My brother slept over last night which was cool cuz i hadn't spent a lot of time with him lately. yay family time. haha.

well, gotta go. lagoon was friggan top notes and i'll be back tonight! woo!

expect some more pics dudes!

Lagoon baby!

WOo! I get to go to Lagoon on Friday!

August will be a craaaazzy month. :)

So, McCord and I just got home from a couple day's in Strawberry Resivoir. While I had fun seeing the family and getting to know them a little better, i'm glad to be home. (I'm not the camping type.)

McCord and I have a busy Schedule for this month. His buddy Kyle Whiting, will be getting married, so their wedding is something we're planning. Our friend Kilee, has a birthday, that SAME day. A few days later, it will be our 1st anniversary. :) We're excited. this BBQ should be fun. Food and Games? What could be better eh? Then, fall semester at UVU starts and we need to make sure that all our finances are in order. We may be moving again, managment here at Courtside Condominiums, are absolutley horrible, and... probably planning trips.


McCords family is all here and My family is scattered elsewhere across the globe. What i'd really like, is for us to be able to afford to go to Mexico and visit with everyone. However, if that's not possible, i may go to dallas and visit with my 2 cousins, Iveth and Tania, and then my Auntie Loli, and My 2 uncles, Mario and Pepe. I'm a very family person, and when i'm away i start to miss everyone. :) If i go to mexico, i am sure i can convince my dad and his wife, terri, to go with. Then it would be perfect for me to be with Everyone i love.

Anyway, I hope that's possible for us. If so, we'll be going to Mexico for Christmas. Any and all donations accepted! :)) Let me know if you want our bank details.

One mans trash is another mans treasure!

Everyone in the Provo/Orem area, (well actually any area) needs to go join freecycle. It's a site that people post what they don't want anymore, and then other people can have it. It's all free. what you give and what you get. You have to have a yahoo i believe and then it sends emails to that email, and you hit reply when you see something you'd like. check it out.

www.freecycle.org

If you'd like the provo one, or even springville, here they are.
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ProvoUTFreecycle/ (Provo)
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/SpringvilleUTFreecycle/ (Springville)

1st Blog Posting. Bringing everyone up to date!

So, McCord and I are doing great! For those of you who don't know, or remember, (Grandpa Taylor) Our 1st anniversary is coming up! August 16th! We are going to go up Payson Canyon on the 15th, and do a BBQ and Some teenage games afterwards! You'll be getting an invitation soon! Anyway, for those of you who don't know my family well, we're pretty messed up. Not the Mexican side of course! But the Italian (White :)) side, is going downhill. My little brother, is having a girl, right around thanksgiving. We're not sure what's going to happen there, but, whatever happens, will work out. :) I'm gonna be an auntie before a mommy! (Not the best of situations, but God works in mysterious ways right?!) Well, i'm not sure what else to put here, so feel free to ask questions! Love all of you! And, invite anyone that i know (and hopefully like) to this blog. I wanna make it BIG!