What is your worst feeling?

I ask that because, I remember, mine a lot. My worst feeling. The feeling of being violated occurs pretty often in my dreams. I wake up a lot, and a lot of the time, i dream, something about Foster care. To me, that's a violation. Of privacy, of anything really. She (By she i mean, the foster mom that really is the only one i hate with a passion.)knew how i slept, knew how i ate, knew everything. I had no privacy. Could you imagine? All your deepest secrets, out for the "Family" exposure.

But...sometimes, that wasn't the worst feeling.
The worst, sometimes, for me, would be, me, trying to get a fix, of something, to help me... feel better, even for a moment, and that person, trying to hook me up with that fix, asking me to do a special something for them.

That's the worst. Knowing you may not get temporary happiness without having to expose yourself, even more. And what's even better? Asking an abused teenager, Therefore, much more self conscious than some teens, (Which yes, i realize all teens are self conscious.) to be much more open for a minute, just for them.

I'll add more later. Physical therapy is a-callin'.