My new life.

I'm getting the hang of this. Being a mom...with a new job, it's going great. I've decided, I don't necessarily like the age group (or kids) i work with, but the teacher, and the other aide, make it a little fun. I haven't wanted to admit it, because I just really miss everyone, from preschool, from PEEP... but it's not a terrible place. Lunch breaks could be longer. It's kinda hard to go to work 5 days a week, and then pump for 15-20 min, and have 10 min to eat, and whatnot. I liked being able to go and get me food from wherever.

Anyway, Xander, is doing great.Here's him in the bath. He totally has a ball. He loves it.

Sad! I can't upload the video. Let me or Alisha, figure this out!

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1843806540108&comments 

Therefore, i have a little fun giving them to him. I like to watch him play. :)


Now, here's my drama of the week. I have this buddy. I've known since, I think Junior year in high school at LEAST, and I was chatting with him, and said, Oh i'll show you "this" we can go together. His response? That would be inappropriate. I'm like, what? He's like, Well, it's different now because you're married. I was so hurt, that I ended up just getting off and being so sad for the rest of the night. McCord and I talked about it, and he said, I wonder if he is just thinking of me (McCord) and making sure he's not trying to offend me. I didn't care. My thought was, it's not worth it to hang out with me because i'm not Available?! I couldn't believe it. So, I got on FB 2 days later, and so did he. He asked me, "Did I upset you?" And I proceeded to tell him all the things i've had time to think about why this hurt me so much. He told me, over and over again, he was sorry, and that he didn't mean to hurt me. His one thing that drove me crazy, was, he said, "What if people thought something?" My response? You care too much about what other people think. I told him it's not fair for him to care of what other people think about. ESPECIALLY, if you have no relationship with them. Then what's the point in caring what they think?


So, that's my story. Here's my question. Do you ever not do something because of what Other people may think? Who's it hurting? I may be open, and tell you that it hurts my feelings/pisses me off, but others might not. Be honest. That's the least you can do. I'm sure I do something like this too, but I haven't thought of it.


So, McCord never reads my blog, so i'm safe. BUT, I need ideas for his 21st birthday. I have always wanted to surprise him with a trip. But he's so flippen  picky, I have no idea what i'd do. :( Any ideas? Doesn't even have to be a trip. I'd just like something fun, and memorable! He always does nice things for me and i always flop on his B-day. :( His Birthday is April 2nd btw.


Oh, another question. Has anyone ever like, had their baby, and then realized how much they're criticized? Oh my hell it drives me crazy! I'm actually, pulling away from people now, that criticize and i'm just not seeing some of my friends half as much. It's just...i hate it! Well, and I have this overwhelming feeling, that if i don't trust you, i hate that you want to hold my child. I'm not naming names. But, some people, keep holding my child, and i just...it's not even a Can i? it's a oh, come here...to Xander. So they're not asking permission, (which i love when you do) they're grabbing and holding, and i'm too nice to kick your ass. Ugh. I know i know, rude. I don't care. Sometimes, i don't care when i'm rude.

Oh, my wii, freaking said i was 20 lbs less, than before i got prego. That's right, that's a number to be proud of right?

Well then it said Xander was 20 lbs. :(

Broke my heart a little to know it wasn't accurate.

That's all for now. TTYL! Also, Annie, I hate you for not commenting. Thanks to Alisha, for ALWAYS commenting. Mwuauauhahahahah